Tuesday 2 December 2014
If make up is your sweet heart - let it go!! - Joyce
MBaby girls sermons...If make up is your sweet heart-let it go!!
Thursday 16 October 2014
Genesis chapter 2-WHAT DID I EAT?
And so now after getting "married" and having two children, my mother passes away at the tender age of 49...premature death as my basement Pastor would put it. so wha would kill a woman in the prime of age? this got me thinking and even when i was married and went to my "husband's" home I knew there was a problem. You see this idea of broken homes is something that needed to be addressed and soon....or else...
So this guy comes from a home where his mother left or was left-just like me! I don't even know what to call my own father's house, was he polygamous or was he just a lover of many women? That is where the problem begins. I wasn't a saved christian back then but i just thought there is something here. And over the years i just casually prayed about it, and belived it was okay. By the way I am one of the very few women who can say I had a near perfect marriage-until the curse of what was eaten sprung up!!
Genesis 2:17 But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of it: for in the day that thou eatest thereof thou shalt surely die.
So what had I eaten? First the marriage had been started on a wrong foundation, no god there, then fornication, that is sex before marriage even if you marry the same guy, God calls it fornication.
Flee fornication. Every sin that a man does is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body. 1 CORINTHIANS 6:18
But I must say I enjoyed a good union for 12 years, then things started falling apart! I now had 4 children whom I adore very much. When I finally begun walking with God I realized the folly and sins that we commit knowingly or unknowingly have consequences. Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit but did not die immediately as they thought so I too did not reap the consequences immediately until the devil had legal ground to start killing and destroying my home. Infact looking back i thought that this man loved me soooooo much as he had always shown and said that he would never really leave. my children still remember the good times with their father and mother-a perfect family.
And so when I confessed Jesus as my Lord and Saviour and was baptized by immersion in December 16th 2012, my life was now open to the devil's attack because there are things hoe goes to God and says why have you blessed this one when there is all t his sin in her life from 3 or 4 generations back? what can God do?He is a righteous God and cannot go back on his word. So like job, the devil is allowed to come in and try me to the uttermost-see- he has now legal rights.
Chapter 3-NAKED AND HIDDING
So this guy comes from a home where his mother left or was left-just like me! I don't even know what to call my own father's house, was he polygamous or was he just a lover of many women? That is where the problem begins. I wasn't a saved christian back then but i just thought there is something here. And over the years i just casually prayed about it, and belived it was okay. By the way I am one of the very few women who can say I had a near perfect marriage-until the curse of what was eaten sprung up!!
Genesis 2:17 But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of it: for in the day that thou eatest thereof thou shalt surely die.
So what had I eaten? First the marriage had been started on a wrong foundation, no god there, then fornication, that is sex before marriage even if you marry the same guy, God calls it fornication.
Flee fornication. Every sin that a man does is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body. 1 CORINTHIANS 6:18
But I must say I enjoyed a good union for 12 years, then things started falling apart! I now had 4 children whom I adore very much. When I finally begun walking with God I realized the folly and sins that we commit knowingly or unknowingly have consequences. Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit but did not die immediately as they thought so I too did not reap the consequences immediately until the devil had legal ground to start killing and destroying my home. Infact looking back i thought that this man loved me soooooo much as he had always shown and said that he would never really leave. my children still remember the good times with their father and mother-a perfect family.
And so when I confessed Jesus as my Lord and Saviour and was baptized by immersion in December 16th 2012, my life was now open to the devil's attack because there are things hoe goes to God and says why have you blessed this one when there is all t his sin in her life from 3 or 4 generations back? what can God do?He is a righteous God and cannot go back on his word. So like job, the devil is allowed to come in and try me to the uttermost-see- he has now legal rights.
Chapter 3-NAKED AND HIDDING
Wednesday 24 September 2014
Final Things: WHAT NEXT?
Final Things: WHAT NEXT?: I sat wondering what next after the sad and perplexing demise of my dear friend Reg......what next? Last Sabbath I heard a sermon that shook...
WHAT NEXT?
I sat wondering what next after the sad and perplexing demise of my dear friend Reg......what next? Last Sabbath I heard a sermon that shook me out of my stupor....THE PLACE! By Pastor Munene Mwangi....Where did this one come from now? The guy preached with so much gusto I was almost jumping from my chair!!! I was so fired up coz the whole week after the death and interment of my sister I was asking God - "So?" Silence was it until Saturday, Friday night I had asked Jesus "Please let me hear a sermon that will give me an answer". And then this sermon-THE PLACE
Where is the place you are at? What is God asking you to do? God had told Modes and Joshua too that THE PLACE they were standing on was holy ground. Was it the spot on which they were standing on that was holy or the final realization of what God wanted them to do? Wow, that got me thinking, and my creative juices as Reg would say started flowing....did it take her death to finally bring me to THE PLACE? I now know so. My place of ministry is now with the single girls, teenagers and young people, who I do not want to make the same mistakes I made. From dating to marriage to separation, all these have been learning points for me. It is said only a fool learns from there own mistakes, a wise man learns from the mistakes of others.
And so THE PLACE I have come to, is a place of knowing what God wants me to do. I know some may say I am washing dirty linen, yes but let me wash mine to save someone's dirty laundry. I think some of us have been called out to speak about our situations that others may see we are real people. I used to tell Reg that we are the ones not afraid to talk. SO we have to talk, by the way God blessed me with words heh! I can talk for hours!! I can relate to the likes of Joyce Meyer, Yuanita Bynum amongst others...women who speak about their life's journey and the victory Christ has given them. AMEN
So BROKEN RIBS and TEEN WALK are babies born out my experinces.
By the way my book THE BURIAL WILL NOT HOLD, still continues to be written and now with more fire, I have to complete it!! Though there seems to be a pause.
Where is the place you are at? What is God asking you to do? God had told Modes and Joshua too that THE PLACE they were standing on was holy ground. Was it the spot on which they were standing on that was holy or the final realization of what God wanted them to do? Wow, that got me thinking, and my creative juices as Reg would say started flowing....did it take her death to finally bring me to THE PLACE? I now know so. My place of ministry is now with the single girls, teenagers and young people, who I do not want to make the same mistakes I made. From dating to marriage to separation, all these have been learning points for me. It is said only a fool learns from there own mistakes, a wise man learns from the mistakes of others.
And so THE PLACE I have come to, is a place of knowing what God wants me to do. I know some may say I am washing dirty linen, yes but let me wash mine to save someone's dirty laundry. I think some of us have been called out to speak about our situations that others may see we are real people. I used to tell Reg that we are the ones not afraid to talk. SO we have to talk, by the way God blessed me with words heh! I can talk for hours!! I can relate to the likes of Joyce Meyer, Yuanita Bynum amongst others...women who speak about their life's journey and the victory Christ has given them. AMEN
So BROKEN RIBS and TEEN WALK are babies born out my experinces.
By the way my book THE BURIAL WILL NOT HOLD, still continues to be written and now with more fire, I have to complete it!! Though there seems to be a pause.
Wednesday 17 September 2014
YOU HAVE A DATE, ROSE
My sister Reg meant that when you are going to church, you had a date with Jesus, and so you have to have a complete makeover. So every Sunday for her and every Sabbath for me, we made sure we had our best on, complete with flawless skin-thanks to liquid foundation and powder. For those who wonder why for me going to church is a ritual taken seriously.
And when back to the house later we would share what we learnt, from the sermon and everything else in between. And so today as I go to Holy Family Basilica for the funeral mass of this angel, I truly have a date!
It will be solemn mass for my sister but it will be a time also to release every bitterness and anger that I have right now. Reg may be gone, but her legacy will leave on, in her son Richard, whom she earnestly prayed for that he will be a young man with respect an honor for God and for mankind. My prayer is that he will have a stable place to grow and be established in the fear and knowledge of his mother's Lord and Savior Jesus Christ of Nazareth.
PEACE ROSE, PEACE
And when back to the house later we would share what we learnt, from the sermon and everything else in between. And so today as I go to Holy Family Basilica for the funeral mass of this angel, I truly have a date!
It will be solemn mass for my sister but it will be a time also to release every bitterness and anger that I have right now. Reg may be gone, but her legacy will leave on, in her son Richard, whom she earnestly prayed for that he will be a young man with respect an honor for God and for mankind. My prayer is that he will have a stable place to grow and be established in the fear and knowledge of his mother's Lord and Savior Jesus Christ of Nazareth.
PEACE ROSE, PEACE
Tuesday 16 September 2014
AND FINALLY OUR DREAM CAR
So we had this dream of cars.....Reg dreamt driving a Prado, I said "You will be arrested by cops thinking you're a teenager who stole her dad's car, you are too tiny for a Prado and it is too masculine, you need a feminine car...like a Honda CRV" That was in 2010. My dream car has been a CRV Honda for as long as I remember!! So after much talking over coffee and cake, I convinced her to my side, and a deal was made-When she buys a car it will be a blue CRV. At that moment I just told her from the blues that I will then be rich enough to purchase her current car-a Corolla, then later buy my own Blood red Honda to signify the blood of Jesus. We laughed it off. So she once went to a car bazaar to check them out, and told me "By the way the CRV just winked at me like it belongs to me" Laughter again. Cos every time we met we asked when God is going to open her door to buy her car as I buy her old one. That now will not happen, now God has just to bless me with a new Honda CRV.We even knew the prices of every new one that appeared, until we told God "eh how long are we to wait?"
Ecclesiastes 3:11
Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God's work from beginning to end.
JUST A MINUTE-REG
Okay so I was to continue the last profound message from Reg...The year is 2010 you texted (your calls were rare and only when you wanted to pray with me or sing a song) ....Hey Rose please take your CV (which by the way she had done for me so professionally) to Maureen Nafula, she needs workers NOW!! Before I could think, Maureen called "Hi Rose this Maureen Nafula, Regina told me you were looking for a job (was I?), well I have a vacancy in this new project I need people to do some research" Huh??? Did I hear right? Yes I did. My heart was fluttering and my heart beating so fast and loud, I think Maureen could hear it!
Well I did take my CV to NHIF building and met Maureen, who by the way we had worked with at KEMSA. She had this project with Rockefeller foundation. So IHPMR (Institute of Health Policy Marketing and Research), here I come. I begun work the next day - really? My angel had done this one too. And did I mention that for the 2 years I stayed with Reg, she paid me Heheheheheeee, may be let me not mention how much, "This will help you in moving around" is all she said. And I thought it was for one month, she did the same the next month ...and the next...and for two years.
Within 4 months of IHPMR....."Reg, you know I now think I will move to my own house" She never said much, only she knew that I had nothing to move with, and so "You can take my old TV, my old curtains (I had stitched her new ones) I know how to do that, - and here is so much to boost you" I can still hear this angelic voice. And so come January 2011 I moved to my own 2 bedroom apartment, And she escorted me to the house and we had a mini celebration. And now we were a few miles apart but we were still friends.
2 years down the line....IHPMR wound down the project.....and once again Angel to the rescue, this time I decided I have something in my hands like the rod of Moses, our prayer was that God will bless the work of my hands, but can you imagine as I was starting up, things were tough and so Reg set up for me a standing order of so much, every month religiously this amount was in my account by the 2nd of every month.
Last month, Reg sent me a text saying "my sister KRA have just discovered some taxes I have not remitted so this month will be the last for this standing order, but May God-our God will open up a greater door for you". My text back -"Reg, you have already done so much for me, may God remember your sacrifice of giving". Did I understand what that meant? No. I am left wondering, as she now ready to fly back to heaven? I know some people will say the dead are asleep-I know that too, she is asleep-but just maybe or perhaps she was just and angel sent to me for such a time as that!
Reg, for sure I am thoroughly blown off, even I cannot do what you did, but then maybe God wanted me to learn from you, that yes, I too, can be an angel to another BROKEN RIB.
Well I did take my CV to NHIF building and met Maureen, who by the way we had worked with at KEMSA. She had this project with Rockefeller foundation. So IHPMR (Institute of Health Policy Marketing and Research), here I come. I begun work the next day - really? My angel had done this one too. And did I mention that for the 2 years I stayed with Reg, she paid me Heheheheheeee, may be let me not mention how much, "This will help you in moving around" is all she said. And I thought it was for one month, she did the same the next month ...and the next...and for two years.
Within 4 months of IHPMR....."Reg, you know I now think I will move to my own house" She never said much, only she knew that I had nothing to move with, and so "You can take my old TV, my old curtains (I had stitched her new ones) I know how to do that, - and here is so much to boost you" I can still hear this angelic voice. And so come January 2011 I moved to my own 2 bedroom apartment, And she escorted me to the house and we had a mini celebration. And now we were a few miles apart but we were still friends.
2 years down the line....IHPMR wound down the project.....and once again Angel to the rescue, this time I decided I have something in my hands like the rod of Moses, our prayer was that God will bless the work of my hands, but can you imagine as I was starting up, things were tough and so Reg set up for me a standing order of so much, every month religiously this amount was in my account by the 2nd of every month.
Last month, Reg sent me a text saying "my sister KRA have just discovered some taxes I have not remitted so this month will be the last for this standing order, but May God-our God will open up a greater door for you". My text back -"Reg, you have already done so much for me, may God remember your sacrifice of giving". Did I understand what that meant? No. I am left wondering, as she now ready to fly back to heaven? I know some people will say the dead are asleep-I know that too, she is asleep-but just maybe or perhaps she was just and angel sent to me for such a time as that!
Reg, for sure I am thoroughly blown off, even I cannot do what you did, but then maybe God wanted me to learn from you, that yes, I too, can be an angel to another BROKEN RIB.
Monday 15 September 2014
My Friend, My sister, My angel-A Tribute
Tears alone cannot express what I feel right now...I have been angry at God, I have cried, questioned...even begged God to return her soul to her body- Lazarus' style, I wanted a 4 days late miracle....nothing happened. Silence..tears..more heart wrenching tears on Sunday as I prepared to go meet her mother
Reg, I will speak in present tense. What can I say about you?? I may not be given opportunity to say this, but as you used text saying "shout it from the roof tops!!" I am now prepared to shout!!!! To know that I will not see you smile again, I saw your picture at mum's place and my tears flowed once again, did you just say go on? Yes- I will try to go on-without you? Yeah, and "our" plans, gosh what was our plan for this year? -To get ourself husbands in Jesus name, I didn't know that you will get yours before me...The Husband of the single girls and the widows. A Husband of husbands, the King of kings and the Lord of lords-God himself was your husband and mine.
As single "girls" we have been accountable to each other, committed to our marriage vows and what the Bible says, the "Thus says the Lord" as you would put it, hahahhaaaaa, we laughed then we would pull put our big bibles and say, what does God say about re-marriage again? and then we said it was not fair that "thus says the Lord" It was very funny, and true we remained true to our vows...till death do us part. So you have gone to sleep in the Lord..he is the great husband. I am left, mourning for you my dear angel. For what you have been to my life and my children. Reg, what can I say?
#tearswellingup Let me continue in the midst of the tars... I can hardly see this screen.
So where do I begin? I met you in 2005, petit lady swinging on the corridors of KEMSA huh..did I ever imagine you will become my Friend like this? one who has stuck closer than a brother? No!! To say I was intimidated is not right but I thought wow what a swagging girl!- I am never intimidated by the way. So I did my casual job for 3 months and at your recommendation I was hired as Admin Assistant for the Consultants at KEMSA. That is when "our" looooooooong journey begun.
Soon we were on talking terms and I got to know you better, even establishing that you were married to my cousin, talk of coincidence!! Little did I know that 4 years later, you would be my little angel God sent to rescue me. When my own story changed and in August 2009 I was homeless without a job with no money, you came strutting into my house at Yaya centre, with 2 bags. "Rose, it is over....come with me to my house for a day, 2 days, a week, a month or...or ..whatever-let's go" The hugs amidst tears-I packed my clothes and whtever else to Kilelesha, Delux Plaza falt B5, here we come.....what we thought was two weeks ended up to be 2 years!!!!!! What! that long? And I never saw any ill feelings or "madharau" as Kenyans would say. 2 years...wah. My kids visited every now and then. There was always cake baked for them...were you a real person or an angel?
Time and time again we prayed, we danced (to praise songs) late into the night, we fasted, we prayed some more. Reg, did our prayers get answered? Yes always.....through it all God was faithful. I drove your car every visiting days to visit my children in their various schools....sometimes you said "haiya this time you have to visit the two at a go? Then just take the car, I will go to church by matatu" I looked at you "What?" and yes I drove your car to the 2 schools, and Richard would came along. The food, the shopping, the pocket money...all came from you my angel.
How many times did I pinch you to see if you are real or you would fly away, then I will just confirm and say "O she was an angel sent for this time, and she has flown back to heaven" Funny thing is that every one I shared this stories with wanted to meet you, but none has met you. ahhahahhaaa I can laugh at this because none of them can prove if you were real now.How sad- I had wanted them to see you for real.
We were both writing "our" books, mine-THE BURIAL WILL NOT HOLD!. you used to ask where I got such funny titles. And yours was almost done but had no title- I was to give one of my funny titles after I read it and corrected stuff....mmhh now? I may never get to give you a funny title. May be I would have the title ANGELS ARE REAL I cannot think of a funny title now my mind for now has lost its funny side. Well, you were to write the forward to my burial will not hold book-did you? I hope it will be found somewhere, but even if not I will try to write what I thought you could have said- I knew you too well, maybe I will do that justice.
Then "our" ministry to single people. We were to begin talking about holiness as you wait for another chance at marriage. I was coming to drop a bombshell of a name this week-then you are not there. So here goes that name I was bringing "BROKEN RIBS" I can hear you laughing "Rose!!! What? Broken ribs!!!??" You are tickled...yes we were the broken ribs, because we were the "bone of my bones" ribs taken from the side of someone who broke their vows, ....made whole by the blood atoning sacrifice of Jesus, he has mended us therefore we were to talk to other broken ribs or breaking ones and tell them God is still their husband, their lover, their friend.The Lord who turned our mourning into dancing, beauty for ashes, gold from stones.
Well dear Reg (that was what I always called you) my kids call you Aunty Reg....they have cried with me and for you my sister...from Sid to Joyce...and in between...Danielle and my own Richard bid as you called my Richard, they all will miss you dearly. But 2 years ago we had a pact didn't we that for all you did for me my children will take care of the small Richard-they will don't you worry about that, our prayers were what? That God will make our children greater than we are. You were Director ICT USIU- Richard will be president!!
Sleep in perfect peace, till we meet on that beautiful resurrection morning-which now I know is very close. And YES!! I will be there coz now more than ever I continue to work out my salvation with more fear and trembling.
This will make a chapter of that book...to be continued
Reg, I will speak in present tense. What can I say about you?? I may not be given opportunity to say this, but as you used text saying "shout it from the roof tops!!" I am now prepared to shout!!!! To know that I will not see you smile again, I saw your picture at mum's place and my tears flowed once again, did you just say go on? Yes- I will try to go on-without you? Yeah, and "our" plans, gosh what was our plan for this year? -To get ourself husbands in Jesus name, I didn't know that you will get yours before me...The Husband of the single girls and the widows. A Husband of husbands, the King of kings and the Lord of lords-God himself was your husband and mine.
As single "girls" we have been accountable to each other, committed to our marriage vows and what the Bible says, the "Thus says the Lord" as you would put it, hahahhaaaaa, we laughed then we would pull put our big bibles and say, what does God say about re-marriage again? and then we said it was not fair that "thus says the Lord" It was very funny, and true we remained true to our vows...till death do us part. So you have gone to sleep in the Lord..he is the great husband. I am left, mourning for you my dear angel. For what you have been to my life and my children. Reg, what can I say?
#tearswellingup Let me continue in the midst of the tars... I can hardly see this screen.
So where do I begin? I met you in 2005, petit lady swinging on the corridors of KEMSA huh..did I ever imagine you will become my Friend like this? one who has stuck closer than a brother? No!! To say I was intimidated is not right but I thought wow what a swagging girl!- I am never intimidated by the way. So I did my casual job for 3 months and at your recommendation I was hired as Admin Assistant for the Consultants at KEMSA. That is when "our" looooooooong journey begun.
Soon we were on talking terms and I got to know you better, even establishing that you were married to my cousin, talk of coincidence!! Little did I know that 4 years later, you would be my little angel God sent to rescue me. When my own story changed and in August 2009 I was homeless without a job with no money, you came strutting into my house at Yaya centre, with 2 bags. "Rose, it is over....come with me to my house for a day, 2 days, a week, a month or...or ..whatever-let's go" The hugs amidst tears-I packed my clothes and whtever else to Kilelesha, Delux Plaza falt B5, here we come.....what we thought was two weeks ended up to be 2 years!!!!!! What! that long? And I never saw any ill feelings or "madharau" as Kenyans would say. 2 years...wah. My kids visited every now and then. There was always cake baked for them...were you a real person or an angel?
Time and time again we prayed, we danced (to praise songs) late into the night, we fasted, we prayed some more. Reg, did our prayers get answered? Yes always.....through it all God was faithful. I drove your car every visiting days to visit my children in their various schools....sometimes you said "haiya this time you have to visit the two at a go? Then just take the car, I will go to church by matatu" I looked at you "What?" and yes I drove your car to the 2 schools, and Richard would came along. The food, the shopping, the pocket money...all came from you my angel.
How many times did I pinch you to see if you are real or you would fly away, then I will just confirm and say "O she was an angel sent for this time, and she has flown back to heaven" Funny thing is that every one I shared this stories with wanted to meet you, but none has met you. ahhahahhaaa I can laugh at this because none of them can prove if you were real now.How sad- I had wanted them to see you for real.
We were both writing "our" books, mine-THE BURIAL WILL NOT HOLD!. you used to ask where I got such funny titles. And yours was almost done but had no title- I was to give one of my funny titles after I read it and corrected stuff....mmhh now? I may never get to give you a funny title. May be I would have the title ANGELS ARE REAL I cannot think of a funny title now my mind for now has lost its funny side. Well, you were to write the forward to my burial will not hold book-did you? I hope it will be found somewhere, but even if not I will try to write what I thought you could have said- I knew you too well, maybe I will do that justice.
Then "our" ministry to single people. We were to begin talking about holiness as you wait for another chance at marriage. I was coming to drop a bombshell of a name this week-then you are not there. So here goes that name I was bringing "BROKEN RIBS" I can hear you laughing "Rose!!! What? Broken ribs!!!??" You are tickled...yes we were the broken ribs, because we were the "bone of my bones" ribs taken from the side of someone who broke their vows, ....made whole by the blood atoning sacrifice of Jesus, he has mended us therefore we were to talk to other broken ribs or breaking ones and tell them God is still their husband, their lover, their friend.The Lord who turned our mourning into dancing, beauty for ashes, gold from stones.
Well dear Reg (that was what I always called you) my kids call you Aunty Reg....they have cried with me and for you my sister...from Sid to Joyce...and in between...Danielle and my own Richard bid as you called my Richard, they all will miss you dearly. But 2 years ago we had a pact didn't we that for all you did for me my children will take care of the small Richard-they will don't you worry about that, our prayers were what? That God will make our children greater than we are. You were Director ICT USIU- Richard will be president!!
Sleep in perfect peace, till we meet on that beautiful resurrection morning-which now I know is very close. And YES!! I will be there coz now more than ever I continue to work out my salvation with more fear and trembling.
This will make a chapter of that book...to be continued
Monday 4 August 2014
Final Things: My Genesis Chapter one
Final Things: My Genesis Chapter one: Last time I shared the genesis or beginnings of my journey to final walking with Christ. Believe me when I say I was a "Christian"...
My Genesis Chapter one
Last time I shared the genesis or beginnings of my journey to final walking with Christ. Believe me when I say I was a "Christian" going to church and doing all things to work out my salvation on my own. But when I finally surrendered then Christ began to talk too.
My own Genesis begun way back in 1994 after the death of my mother Joyce (she was only 49)...and I was not even present at her burrial/ Being a Ugandan she was burried in a record 2 days, they never keep bodies for whatever reason beyond a weel max, but the main reason was that I was away in Zambia nad my father for his own reasond did not tell me nor my siblings of what had happened. So I went to Kampala and went to the my grand dad's village where she was intered. It took me one year to finally break down and cry for this woman that was my mom. and that is when it dawned on me about the reality of death, what happens when finally you die? what happens to you? Then one day I walked to church..I just remembered that we are Anglicans so I just went to the nearest on i found. That begun my search.
And when I went to the basement church I learnt more about my Genesis of everything that I had begun...nothing started With God...Genesis 1 v1 says in the beginning God.... How had I begun my life, my marriage, my studies and jobs, my family eeeehhhh too much beginnings!!!. I just knew i had to reverse all this beginnings but i did not know the effect of my declaration.
I was in for a big awakening of everything I thought I knew as a christian. I went through a program of 50 days of Genesis wow the change began.
Chapter two next time-What did I eat?.
Genesis 2 v16 And the Lord God commanded the man, “You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; 17 but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat from it you will certainly die.”
My own Genesis begun way back in 1994 after the death of my mother Joyce (she was only 49)...and I was not even present at her burrial/ Being a Ugandan she was burried in a record 2 days, they never keep bodies for whatever reason beyond a weel max, but the main reason was that I was away in Zambia nad my father for his own reasond did not tell me nor my siblings of what had happened. So I went to Kampala and went to the my grand dad's village where she was intered. It took me one year to finally break down and cry for this woman that was my mom. and that is when it dawned on me about the reality of death, what happens when finally you die? what happens to you? Then one day I walked to church..I just remembered that we are Anglicans so I just went to the nearest on i found. That begun my search.
And when I went to the basement church I learnt more about my Genesis of everything that I had begun...nothing started With God...Genesis 1 v1 says in the beginning God.... How had I begun my life, my marriage, my studies and jobs, my family eeeehhhh too much beginnings!!!. I just knew i had to reverse all this beginnings but i did not know the effect of my declaration.
I was in for a big awakening of everything I thought I knew as a christian. I went through a program of 50 days of Genesis wow the change began.
Chapter two next time-What did I eat?.
Genesis 2 v16 And the Lord God commanded the man, “You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; 17 but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat from it you will certainly die.”
Friday 25 July 2014
MY GENESIS CHAPTER ONE
The Beginning
Genesis 1 verse1 In the beginning God......In the beginning everything that God created was good-your life, your career, your marriage, your family and children, your ministry, your health, your business-so what happened? How come everything about you is not good?? Where did the rain start beating you? This is the question that got me thinking about the turn of events in my life. In anguish I cried out to God, my Father my Father what went wrong? Remember at this juncture I was slowly but painfully trying to be silent. Hey it was difficult, I am used to talking about everything and anything, those who know me, know that I will talk about everything and give a comment on everything whether you want my opinion or not!! And now i am being "forced" to be quiet- uughh will I survive?
In the silence God begun to finally talk-through his word, a sermon, a friend etc. I was continually going to the church at the basement as I call it. Every morning, noon time and evening, for the next one year I fed like a child who had not seen its mother and when she comes home, the child will not stop feeding. I was hungry-very hungry for that word. Many times i had no fare but I walked to and from Yaya centre to this church! I did not want to miss anything of the revelations i was getting.
It was during this time during the Easter week of 2008 that the pastor at the basement was talking of resurrection. It hit me so hard! Here was a pastor talking of death and Resurrection of Jesus in a way that I had never heard of before. That Christ died that I may leave and be alive in every area of my life! What!? my life had just come to an end or so I thought. My marriage of 17 years was already on the rocks oh in fact not rocks but it was deeply irreparable! so what are you saying? My job had also come to an end! In fact it was just me, and if God did not do anything, I was finished.
I started examining what has befallen me. And what I found out was too deep. so for now think about the beginning of your life. Are you where God said it is good or have things turned out so bad you are wondering whether you are where you ought to be or are you being dragged down by an invisible hand?
Think about this as we pause in this melodrama.
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Wednesday 23 July 2014
THE GENESIS BEGINS
The Genesis of my life now earnestly begun in 2008 after the man I had known for 20 years walked out! Huh! Tough one that even thinking of it,tougher even to start mentioning here, but some one has to learn from my experience and avoid a lot of heartache in future.
Revelation 12 verse 11 says "And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto death."
I begun asking God what went wrong here? And why this had to happen. Don't get me wrong, some of us have to share our lives, it's a calling. I know someone is wondering - why is Rose airing her dirty linen on line? but is not me, then who will talk about the issues facing families that many are afraid to deal with? so i will share mine to the death. You may want to stone me just like right now, but who is without sin?
As I begun to ask myself why and why me, I began to "hear" god clearly, by the way I am a very talkative person, so getting me quiet has taken God 7 years but imagine it began in 2008. I started reading my bible more and meditating on the word of God. I could spend hours reading- and wah! The discoveries eeehh!! Where had I been? Sometimes the revelations hit me hard! Actually knocked me out for days....I had to get a place(read church) that taught biblical truths, so in a frenzy i called a friend-Glorine to show me what to do and where to go. Glorine had been talking to me for eons, and I was not listening. i mean, my life had been comfortable, so what was she trying to tel me that I needed God? I mean I went to church every Sabbath and had given my life to Christ in 2004 after the death of my dear mother. She died at the age of 49, a very premature death. It is mum's death that got me thinking, heh!actually people die?
So Glorine told me about a church that teaches Bible truths without apologies. I finally located it one day when I was just tired of the turn of events in my life. Believe me when I say I prayed and told God that if the first sermon I heard did not relate to me then I am not going back! Lo and behold-what was the message? The power of agreement!! Eeh Lord what are you saying? The pastor there taught this in relation to marriage-ah Lord, Lord I was dumbfounded!!! What was this man talking about? Had he been told I will be there? After the sermon i went home asking God- "Father, what are you saying?" I have never turned back after that.
Next- Genesis chapter 1- In the begging God....
Revelation 12 verse 11 says "And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto death."
I begun asking God what went wrong here? And why this had to happen. Don't get me wrong, some of us have to share our lives, it's a calling. I know someone is wondering - why is Rose airing her dirty linen on line? but is not me, then who will talk about the issues facing families that many are afraid to deal with? so i will share mine to the death. You may want to stone me just like right now, but who is without sin?
As I begun to ask myself why and why me, I began to "hear" god clearly, by the way I am a very talkative person, so getting me quiet has taken God 7 years but imagine it began in 2008. I started reading my bible more and meditating on the word of God. I could spend hours reading- and wah! The discoveries eeehh!! Where had I been? Sometimes the revelations hit me hard! Actually knocked me out for days....I had to get a place(read church) that taught biblical truths, so in a frenzy i called a friend-Glorine to show me what to do and where to go. Glorine had been talking to me for eons, and I was not listening. i mean, my life had been comfortable, so what was she trying to tel me that I needed God? I mean I went to church every Sabbath and had given my life to Christ in 2004 after the death of my dear mother. She died at the age of 49, a very premature death. It is mum's death that got me thinking, heh!actually people die?
So Glorine told me about a church that teaches Bible truths without apologies. I finally located it one day when I was just tired of the turn of events in my life. Believe me when I say I prayed and told God that if the first sermon I heard did not relate to me then I am not going back! Lo and behold-what was the message? The power of agreement!! Eeh Lord what are you saying? The pastor there taught this in relation to marriage-ah Lord, Lord I was dumbfounded!!! What was this man talking about? Had he been told I will be there? After the sermon i went home asking God- "Father, what are you saying?" I have never turned back after that.
Next- Genesis chapter 1- In the begging God....
Wednesday 25 June 2014
Monday 23 June 2014
Final Things: THE MEETING
Final Things: THE MEETING: Luke 7 verse 13 When the Lord saw ROSE, his heart went out to her and he said, “Don’t cry.” And Christ met me at the gate of failure ......
Wednesday 18 June 2014
THE MEETING
Luke 7 verse 13 When the Lord saw ROSE, his heart went out to her and he said, “Don’t cry.”
And Christ met me at the gate of failure ...when I was carrying my coffin of failure in marriage, family, careers ministry, and I was crying bitterly, remembering all the wasted years as I thought wasted. Remembering all the good times and the bad that we had held on as a family and the cry was one of anguish. thonking of what the future will be like and what it had for me and all I saw was darkness-and this gnawing feeling of growing old alone.
At this juncture when Christ met me, He has tried His best at wiping away my tears- and you know what!? He has succeeded! But it has taken 7 years- Seven years of deliverance from the foundations of my life as a person. Deliverance from all forms of spirits that have made sure no one in my family stays married for long if they do then its a marriage full of sorrows and rejections where everything about you dies in your hand even as you struggle to nurse it to life.
3 If the foundations be destroyed, what can the righteous do?
Since I discovered this scripture, it has ministered a lot to me and my family. What can you do as a person when you are truly born again spirit filled Christian but have never dealt with your foundations from the first generation? Foundations of Idolatry, witchcraft, polygamy, lying etc..the reason why many christian continue to suffer in silence is because our foundations are crying out against us. How can the Lord bless that which is cursed already? And the Devil has a legal ground to accuse you?
Watch out for the Genesis of my healing.....
And Christ met me at the gate of failure ...when I was carrying my coffin of failure in marriage, family, careers ministry, and I was crying bitterly, remembering all the wasted years as I thought wasted. Remembering all the good times and the bad that we had held on as a family and the cry was one of anguish. thonking of what the future will be like and what it had for me and all I saw was darkness-and this gnawing feeling of growing old alone.
At this juncture when Christ met me, He has tried His best at wiping away my tears- and you know what!? He has succeeded! But it has taken 7 years- Seven years of deliverance from the foundations of my life as a person. Deliverance from all forms of spirits that have made sure no one in my family stays married for long if they do then its a marriage full of sorrows and rejections where everything about you dies in your hand even as you struggle to nurse it to life.
Psalm 11
In the Lord put I my trust: how say ye to my soul, Flee as a bird to your mountain?
2 For,
lo, the wicked bend their bow, they make ready their arrow upon the
string, that they may privily shoot at the upright in heart.3 If the foundations be destroyed, what can the righteous do?
Since I discovered this scripture, it has ministered a lot to me and my family. What can you do as a person when you are truly born again spirit filled Christian but have never dealt with your foundations from the first generation? Foundations of Idolatry, witchcraft, polygamy, lying etc..the reason why many christian continue to suffer in silence is because our foundations are crying out against us. How can the Lord bless that which is cursed already? And the Devil has a legal ground to accuse you?
Watch out for the Genesis of my healing.....
Thursday 5 June 2014
Final Things: THE BURIAL WILL NOT HOLD....CONT'D
Final Things: THE BURIAL WILL NOT HOLD....CONT'D: Jesus Raises a Widow’s Son Luke 7v11 Soon afterward, Jesus went to a town called Nain, and his disciples and a large crowd went along wit...
Final Things: THE BURIAL WILL NOT HOLD
Final Things: THE BURIAL WILL NOT HOLD: Jesus Raises a Widow’s Son 11 Soon afterward, Jesus went to a town called Nain, and his disciples and a large crowd went along with him. ...
Final Things: First Post
Final Things: First Post: Okay, so i finally start this blog-courtesy of my eldest son Sidney who put so much pressure on Saturday until I felt so small. Well so h...
Wednesday 4 June 2014
THE BURIAL WILL NOT HOLD....CONT'D
Jesus Raises a Widow’s Son
Luke 7v11Soon afterward, Jesus went to a town called Nain, and his disciples and a large crowd went along with him.
12As
he approached the town gate, a dead person was being carried out—the
only son of his mother, and she was a widow. And a large crowd from the
town was with her.
This large crowd has followed the events of my life, and seven years later, some are disappointed that there was no burial, others are still waiting at the telemetry...but then this girl met Jesus....at the gate of the city....
To be continued...
Friday 30 May 2014
THE BURIAL WILL NOT HOLD
Jesus Raises a Widow’s Son
11Soon afterward, Jesus went to a town called Nain, and his disciples and a large crowd went along with him.
12As
he approached the town gate, a dead person was being carried out—the
only son of his mother, and she was a widow. And a large crowd from the
town was with her.
13When the Lord saw her, his heart went out to her and he said, “Don’t cry.”
14Then he went up and touched the bier they were carrying him on, and the bearers stood still. He said, “Young man, I say to you, get up!”
15The dead man sat up and began to talk, and Jesus gave him back to his mother.
16They
were all filled with awe and praised God. “A great prophet has appeared
among us,” they said. “God has come to help his people.”
17This news about Jesus spread throughout Judea and the surrounding country.
This story forms the basis of a book I started writing in 2008 and stopped because I thought the burial actually took place. And the story probably started in 2003, I had just come back from a far land in southern Africa and even as I landed at the airport I took one look at the person who came to pick me and I knew something was definitely wrong....something had changed.
Forward to 2005, my world as I knew it begun to fall apart! And just like the woman in this bible story carried her only son for burial, I too begun to face burial of several things in my life. And by 2007 I lost everything I knew and held dear.
To be continued.....
Tuesday 20 May 2014
First Post
Okay, so i finally start this blog-courtesy of my eldest son Sidney who put so much pressure on Saturday until I felt so small.
Well so here am i trying out this blog to see where it will take me.
First I will say thank you to this young man, Sid and to all my children, biological, adopted and all who see me as a mother to them and come for naked truth advice. I will be sharing a lot on my experiences as a one time youth (the mistakes and the achievements) and as an older woman (mistakes and achievements too), so watch this space.
I will also introduce my line of fashion items originals by me.
Any other ideas are welcome
Well so here am i trying out this blog to see where it will take me.
First I will say thank you to this young man, Sid and to all my children, biological, adopted and all who see me as a mother to them and come for naked truth advice. I will be sharing a lot on my experiences as a one time youth (the mistakes and the achievements) and as an older woman (mistakes and achievements too), so watch this space.
I will also introduce my line of fashion items originals by me.
Any other ideas are welcome
Monday 19 May 2014
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