Tuesday, 16 September 2014
JUST A MINUTE-REG
Okay so I was to continue the last profound message from Reg...The year is 2010 you texted (your calls were rare and only when you wanted to pray with me or sing a song) ....Hey Rose please take your CV (which by the way she had done for me so professionally) to Maureen Nafula, she needs workers NOW!! Before I could think, Maureen called "Hi Rose this Maureen Nafula, Regina told me you were looking for a job (was I?), well I have a vacancy in this new project I need people to do some research" Huh??? Did I hear right? Yes I did. My heart was fluttering and my heart beating so fast and loud, I think Maureen could hear it!
Well I did take my CV to NHIF building and met Maureen, who by the way we had worked with at KEMSA. She had this project with Rockefeller foundation. So IHPMR (Institute of Health Policy Marketing and Research), here I come. I begun work the next day - really? My angel had done this one too. And did I mention that for the 2 years I stayed with Reg, she paid me Heheheheheeee, may be let me not mention how much, "This will help you in moving around" is all she said. And I thought it was for one month, she did the same the next month ...and the next...and for two years.
Within 4 months of IHPMR....."Reg, you know I now think I will move to my own house" She never said much, only she knew that I had nothing to move with, and so "You can take my old TV, my old curtains (I had stitched her new ones) I know how to do that, - and here is so much to boost you" I can still hear this angelic voice. And so come January 2011 I moved to my own 2 bedroom apartment, And she escorted me to the house and we had a mini celebration. And now we were a few miles apart but we were still friends.
2 years down the line....IHPMR wound down the project.....and once again Angel to the rescue, this time I decided I have something in my hands like the rod of Moses, our prayer was that God will bless the work of my hands, but can you imagine as I was starting up, things were tough and so Reg set up for me a standing order of so much, every month religiously this amount was in my account by the 2nd of every month.
Last month, Reg sent me a text saying "my sister KRA have just discovered some taxes I have not remitted so this month will be the last for this standing order, but May God-our God will open up a greater door for you". My text back -"Reg, you have already done so much for me, may God remember your sacrifice of giving". Did I understand what that meant? No. I am left wondering, as she now ready to fly back to heaven? I know some people will say the dead are asleep-I know that too, she is asleep-but just maybe or perhaps she was just and angel sent to me for such a time as that!
Reg, for sure I am thoroughly blown off, even I cannot do what you did, but then maybe God wanted me to learn from you, that yes, I too, can be an angel to another BROKEN RIB.
Well I did take my CV to NHIF building and met Maureen, who by the way we had worked with at KEMSA. She had this project with Rockefeller foundation. So IHPMR (Institute of Health Policy Marketing and Research), here I come. I begun work the next day - really? My angel had done this one too. And did I mention that for the 2 years I stayed with Reg, she paid me Heheheheheeee, may be let me not mention how much, "This will help you in moving around" is all she said. And I thought it was for one month, she did the same the next month ...and the next...and for two years.
Within 4 months of IHPMR....."Reg, you know I now think I will move to my own house" She never said much, only she knew that I had nothing to move with, and so "You can take my old TV, my old curtains (I had stitched her new ones) I know how to do that, - and here is so much to boost you" I can still hear this angelic voice. And so come January 2011 I moved to my own 2 bedroom apartment, And she escorted me to the house and we had a mini celebration. And now we were a few miles apart but we were still friends.
2 years down the line....IHPMR wound down the project.....and once again Angel to the rescue, this time I decided I have something in my hands like the rod of Moses, our prayer was that God will bless the work of my hands, but can you imagine as I was starting up, things were tough and so Reg set up for me a standing order of so much, every month religiously this amount was in my account by the 2nd of every month.
Last month, Reg sent me a text saying "my sister KRA have just discovered some taxes I have not remitted so this month will be the last for this standing order, but May God-our God will open up a greater door for you". My text back -"Reg, you have already done so much for me, may God remember your sacrifice of giving". Did I understand what that meant? No. I am left wondering, as she now ready to fly back to heaven? I know some people will say the dead are asleep-I know that too, she is asleep-but just maybe or perhaps she was just and angel sent to me for such a time as that!
Reg, for sure I am thoroughly blown off, even I cannot do what you did, but then maybe God wanted me to learn from you, that yes, I too, can be an angel to another BROKEN RIB.
Monday, 15 September 2014
My Friend, My sister, My angel-A Tribute
Tears alone cannot express what I feel right now...I have been angry at God, I have cried, questioned...even begged God to return her soul to her body- Lazarus' style, I wanted a 4 days late miracle....nothing happened. Silence..tears..more heart wrenching tears on Sunday as I prepared to go meet her mother
Reg, I will speak in present tense. What can I say about you?? I may not be given opportunity to say this, but as you used text saying "shout it from the roof tops!!" I am now prepared to shout!!!! To know that I will not see you smile again, I saw your picture at mum's place and my tears flowed once again, did you just say go on? Yes- I will try to go on-without you? Yeah, and "our" plans, gosh what was our plan for this year? -To get ourself husbands in Jesus name, I didn't know that you will get yours before me...The Husband of the single girls and the widows. A Husband of husbands, the King of kings and the Lord of lords-God himself was your husband and mine.
As single "girls" we have been accountable to each other, committed to our marriage vows and what the Bible says, the "Thus says the Lord" as you would put it, hahahhaaaaa, we laughed then we would pull put our big bibles and say, what does God say about re-marriage again? and then we said it was not fair that "thus says the Lord" It was very funny, and true we remained true to our vows...till death do us part. So you have gone to sleep in the Lord..he is the great husband. I am left, mourning for you my dear angel. For what you have been to my life and my children. Reg, what can I say?
#tearswellingup Let me continue in the midst of the tars... I can hardly see this screen.
So where do I begin? I met you in 2005, petit lady swinging on the corridors of KEMSA huh..did I ever imagine you will become my Friend like this? one who has stuck closer than a brother? No!! To say I was intimidated is not right but I thought wow what a swagging girl!- I am never intimidated by the way. So I did my casual job for 3 months and at your recommendation I was hired as Admin Assistant for the Consultants at KEMSA. That is when "our" looooooooong journey begun.
Soon we were on talking terms and I got to know you better, even establishing that you were married to my cousin, talk of coincidence!! Little did I know that 4 years later, you would be my little angel God sent to rescue me. When my own story changed and in August 2009 I was homeless without a job with no money, you came strutting into my house at Yaya centre, with 2 bags. "Rose, it is over....come with me to my house for a day, 2 days, a week, a month or...or ..whatever-let's go" The hugs amidst tears-I packed my clothes and whtever else to Kilelesha, Delux Plaza falt B5, here we come.....what we thought was two weeks ended up to be 2 years!!!!!! What! that long? And I never saw any ill feelings or "madharau" as Kenyans would say. 2 years...wah. My kids visited every now and then. There was always cake baked for them...were you a real person or an angel?
Time and time again we prayed, we danced (to praise songs) late into the night, we fasted, we prayed some more. Reg, did our prayers get answered? Yes always.....through it all God was faithful. I drove your car every visiting days to visit my children in their various schools....sometimes you said "haiya this time you have to visit the two at a go? Then just take the car, I will go to church by matatu" I looked at you "What?" and yes I drove your car to the 2 schools, and Richard would came along. The food, the shopping, the pocket money...all came from you my angel.
How many times did I pinch you to see if you are real or you would fly away, then I will just confirm and say "O she was an angel sent for this time, and she has flown back to heaven" Funny thing is that every one I shared this stories with wanted to meet you, but none has met you. ahhahahhaaa I can laugh at this because none of them can prove if you were real now.How sad- I had wanted them to see you for real.
We were both writing "our" books, mine-THE BURIAL WILL NOT HOLD!. you used to ask where I got such funny titles. And yours was almost done but had no title- I was to give one of my funny titles after I read it and corrected stuff....mmhh now? I may never get to give you a funny title. May be I would have the title ANGELS ARE REAL I cannot think of a funny title now my mind for now has lost its funny side. Well, you were to write the forward to my burial will not hold book-did you? I hope it will be found somewhere, but even if not I will try to write what I thought you could have said- I knew you too well, maybe I will do that justice.
Then "our" ministry to single people. We were to begin talking about holiness as you wait for another chance at marriage. I was coming to drop a bombshell of a name this week-then you are not there. So here goes that name I was bringing "BROKEN RIBS" I can hear you laughing "Rose!!! What? Broken ribs!!!??" You are tickled...yes we were the broken ribs, because we were the "bone of my bones" ribs taken from the side of someone who broke their vows, ....made whole by the blood atoning sacrifice of Jesus, he has mended us therefore we were to talk to other broken ribs or breaking ones and tell them God is still their husband, their lover, their friend.The Lord who turned our mourning into dancing, beauty for ashes, gold from stones.
Well dear Reg (that was what I always called you) my kids call you Aunty Reg....they have cried with me and for you my sister...from Sid to Joyce...and in between...Danielle and my own Richard bid as you called my Richard, they all will miss you dearly. But 2 years ago we had a pact didn't we that for all you did for me my children will take care of the small Richard-they will don't you worry about that, our prayers were what? That God will make our children greater than we are. You were Director ICT USIU- Richard will be president!!
Sleep in perfect peace, till we meet on that beautiful resurrection morning-which now I know is very close. And YES!! I will be there coz now more than ever I continue to work out my salvation with more fear and trembling.
This will make a chapter of that book...to be continued
Reg, I will speak in present tense. What can I say about you?? I may not be given opportunity to say this, but as you used text saying "shout it from the roof tops!!" I am now prepared to shout!!!! To know that I will not see you smile again, I saw your picture at mum's place and my tears flowed once again, did you just say go on? Yes- I will try to go on-without you? Yeah, and "our" plans, gosh what was our plan for this year? -To get ourself husbands in Jesus name, I didn't know that you will get yours before me...The Husband of the single girls and the widows. A Husband of husbands, the King of kings and the Lord of lords-God himself was your husband and mine.
As single "girls" we have been accountable to each other, committed to our marriage vows and what the Bible says, the "Thus says the Lord" as you would put it, hahahhaaaaa, we laughed then we would pull put our big bibles and say, what does God say about re-marriage again? and then we said it was not fair that "thus says the Lord" It was very funny, and true we remained true to our vows...till death do us part. So you have gone to sleep in the Lord..he is the great husband. I am left, mourning for you my dear angel. For what you have been to my life and my children. Reg, what can I say?
#tearswellingup Let me continue in the midst of the tars... I can hardly see this screen.
So where do I begin? I met you in 2005, petit lady swinging on the corridors of KEMSA huh..did I ever imagine you will become my Friend like this? one who has stuck closer than a brother? No!! To say I was intimidated is not right but I thought wow what a swagging girl!- I am never intimidated by the way. So I did my casual job for 3 months and at your recommendation I was hired as Admin Assistant for the Consultants at KEMSA. That is when "our" looooooooong journey begun.
Soon we were on talking terms and I got to know you better, even establishing that you were married to my cousin, talk of coincidence!! Little did I know that 4 years later, you would be my little angel God sent to rescue me. When my own story changed and in August 2009 I was homeless without a job with no money, you came strutting into my house at Yaya centre, with 2 bags. "Rose, it is over....come with me to my house for a day, 2 days, a week, a month or...or ..whatever-let's go" The hugs amidst tears-I packed my clothes and whtever else to Kilelesha, Delux Plaza falt B5, here we come.....what we thought was two weeks ended up to be 2 years!!!!!! What! that long? And I never saw any ill feelings or "madharau" as Kenyans would say. 2 years...wah. My kids visited every now and then. There was always cake baked for them...were you a real person or an angel?
Time and time again we prayed, we danced (to praise songs) late into the night, we fasted, we prayed some more. Reg, did our prayers get answered? Yes always.....through it all God was faithful. I drove your car every visiting days to visit my children in their various schools....sometimes you said "haiya this time you have to visit the two at a go? Then just take the car, I will go to church by matatu" I looked at you "What?" and yes I drove your car to the 2 schools, and Richard would came along. The food, the shopping, the pocket money...all came from you my angel.
How many times did I pinch you to see if you are real or you would fly away, then I will just confirm and say "O she was an angel sent for this time, and she has flown back to heaven" Funny thing is that every one I shared this stories with wanted to meet you, but none has met you. ahhahahhaaa I can laugh at this because none of them can prove if you were real now.How sad- I had wanted them to see you for real.
We were both writing "our" books, mine-THE BURIAL WILL NOT HOLD!. you used to ask where I got such funny titles. And yours was almost done but had no title- I was to give one of my funny titles after I read it and corrected stuff....mmhh now? I may never get to give you a funny title. May be I would have the title ANGELS ARE REAL I cannot think of a funny title now my mind for now has lost its funny side. Well, you were to write the forward to my burial will not hold book-did you? I hope it will be found somewhere, but even if not I will try to write what I thought you could have said- I knew you too well, maybe I will do that justice.
Then "our" ministry to single people. We were to begin talking about holiness as you wait for another chance at marriage. I was coming to drop a bombshell of a name this week-then you are not there. So here goes that name I was bringing "BROKEN RIBS" I can hear you laughing "Rose!!! What? Broken ribs!!!??" You are tickled...yes we were the broken ribs, because we were the "bone of my bones" ribs taken from the side of someone who broke their vows, ....made whole by the blood atoning sacrifice of Jesus, he has mended us therefore we were to talk to other broken ribs or breaking ones and tell them God is still their husband, their lover, their friend.The Lord who turned our mourning into dancing, beauty for ashes, gold from stones.
Well dear Reg (that was what I always called you) my kids call you Aunty Reg....they have cried with me and for you my sister...from Sid to Joyce...and in between...Danielle and my own Richard bid as you called my Richard, they all will miss you dearly. But 2 years ago we had a pact didn't we that for all you did for me my children will take care of the small Richard-they will don't you worry about that, our prayers were what? That God will make our children greater than we are. You were Director ICT USIU- Richard will be president!!
Sleep in perfect peace, till we meet on that beautiful resurrection morning-which now I know is very close. And YES!! I will be there coz now more than ever I continue to work out my salvation with more fear and trembling.
This will make a chapter of that book...to be continued
Monday, 4 August 2014
Final Things: My Genesis Chapter one
Final Things: My Genesis Chapter one: Last time I shared the genesis or beginnings of my journey to final walking with Christ. Believe me when I say I was a "Christian"...
My Genesis Chapter one
Last time I shared the genesis or beginnings of my journey to final walking with Christ. Believe me when I say I was a "Christian" going to church and doing all things to work out my salvation on my own. But when I finally surrendered then Christ began to talk too.
My own Genesis begun way back in 1994 after the death of my mother Joyce (she was only 49)...and I was not even present at her burrial/ Being a Ugandan she was burried in a record 2 days, they never keep bodies for whatever reason beyond a weel max, but the main reason was that I was away in Zambia nad my father for his own reasond did not tell me nor my siblings of what had happened. So I went to Kampala and went to the my grand dad's village where she was intered. It took me one year to finally break down and cry for this woman that was my mom. and that is when it dawned on me about the reality of death, what happens when finally you die? what happens to you? Then one day I walked to church..I just remembered that we are Anglicans so I just went to the nearest on i found. That begun my search.
And when I went to the basement church I learnt more about my Genesis of everything that I had begun...nothing started With God...Genesis 1 v1 says in the beginning God.... How had I begun my life, my marriage, my studies and jobs, my family eeeehhhh too much beginnings!!!. I just knew i had to reverse all this beginnings but i did not know the effect of my declaration.
I was in for a big awakening of everything I thought I knew as a christian. I went through a program of 50 days of Genesis wow the change began.
Chapter two next time-What did I eat?.
Genesis 2 v16 And the Lord God commanded the man, “You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; 17 but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat from it you will certainly die.”
My own Genesis begun way back in 1994 after the death of my mother Joyce (she was only 49)...and I was not even present at her burrial/ Being a Ugandan she was burried in a record 2 days, they never keep bodies for whatever reason beyond a weel max, but the main reason was that I was away in Zambia nad my father for his own reasond did not tell me nor my siblings of what had happened. So I went to Kampala and went to the my grand dad's village where she was intered. It took me one year to finally break down and cry for this woman that was my mom. and that is when it dawned on me about the reality of death, what happens when finally you die? what happens to you? Then one day I walked to church..I just remembered that we are Anglicans so I just went to the nearest on i found. That begun my search.
And when I went to the basement church I learnt more about my Genesis of everything that I had begun...nothing started With God...Genesis 1 v1 says in the beginning God.... How had I begun my life, my marriage, my studies and jobs, my family eeeehhhh too much beginnings!!!. I just knew i had to reverse all this beginnings but i did not know the effect of my declaration.
I was in for a big awakening of everything I thought I knew as a christian. I went through a program of 50 days of Genesis wow the change began.
Chapter two next time-What did I eat?.
Genesis 2 v16 And the Lord God commanded the man, “You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; 17 but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat from it you will certainly die.”
Friday, 25 July 2014
MY GENESIS CHAPTER ONE
The Beginning
Genesis 1 verse1 In the beginning God......In the beginning everything that God created was good-your life, your career, your marriage, your family and children, your ministry, your health, your business-so what happened? How come everything about you is not good?? Where did the rain start beating you? This is the question that got me thinking about the turn of events in my life. In anguish I cried out to God, my Father my Father what went wrong? Remember at this juncture I was slowly but painfully trying to be silent. Hey it was difficult, I am used to talking about everything and anything, those who know me, know that I will talk about everything and give a comment on everything whether you want my opinion or not!! And now i am being "forced" to be quiet- uughh will I survive?
In the silence God begun to finally talk-through his word, a sermon, a friend etc. I was continually going to the church at the basement as I call it. Every morning, noon time and evening, for the next one year I fed like a child who had not seen its mother and when she comes home, the child will not stop feeding. I was hungry-very hungry for that word. Many times i had no fare but I walked to and from Yaya centre to this church! I did not want to miss anything of the revelations i was getting.
It was during this time during the Easter week of 2008 that the pastor at the basement was talking of resurrection. It hit me so hard! Here was a pastor talking of death and Resurrection of Jesus in a way that I had never heard of before. That Christ died that I may leave and be alive in every area of my life! What!? my life had just come to an end or so I thought. My marriage of 17 years was already on the rocks oh in fact not rocks but it was deeply irreparable! so what are you saying? My job had also come to an end! In fact it was just me, and if God did not do anything, I was finished.
I started examining what has befallen me. And what I found out was too deep. so for now think about the beginning of your life. Are you where God said it is good or have things turned out so bad you are wondering whether you are where you ought to be or are you being dragged down by an invisible hand?
Think about this as we pause in this melodrama.
Next: The Foundation
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Wednesday, 23 July 2014
THE GENESIS BEGINS
The Genesis of my life now earnestly begun in 2008 after the man I had known for 20 years walked out! Huh! Tough one that even thinking of it,tougher even to start mentioning here, but some one has to learn from my experience and avoid a lot of heartache in future.
Revelation 12 verse 11 says "And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto death."
I begun asking God what went wrong here? And why this had to happen. Don't get me wrong, some of us have to share our lives, it's a calling. I know someone is wondering - why is Rose airing her dirty linen on line? but is not me, then who will talk about the issues facing families that many are afraid to deal with? so i will share mine to the death. You may want to stone me just like right now, but who is without sin?
As I begun to ask myself why and why me, I began to "hear" god clearly, by the way I am a very talkative person, so getting me quiet has taken God 7 years but imagine it began in 2008. I started reading my bible more and meditating on the word of God. I could spend hours reading- and wah! The discoveries eeehh!! Where had I been? Sometimes the revelations hit me hard! Actually knocked me out for days....I had to get a place(read church) that taught biblical truths, so in a frenzy i called a friend-Glorine to show me what to do and where to go. Glorine had been talking to me for eons, and I was not listening. i mean, my life had been comfortable, so what was she trying to tel me that I needed God? I mean I went to church every Sabbath and had given my life to Christ in 2004 after the death of my dear mother. She died at the age of 49, a very premature death. It is mum's death that got me thinking, heh!actually people die?
So Glorine told me about a church that teaches Bible truths without apologies. I finally located it one day when I was just tired of the turn of events in my life. Believe me when I say I prayed and told God that if the first sermon I heard did not relate to me then I am not going back! Lo and behold-what was the message? The power of agreement!! Eeh Lord what are you saying? The pastor there taught this in relation to marriage-ah Lord, Lord I was dumbfounded!!! What was this man talking about? Had he been told I will be there? After the sermon i went home asking God- "Father, what are you saying?" I have never turned back after that.
Next- Genesis chapter 1- In the begging God....
Revelation 12 verse 11 says "And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto death."
I begun asking God what went wrong here? And why this had to happen. Don't get me wrong, some of us have to share our lives, it's a calling. I know someone is wondering - why is Rose airing her dirty linen on line? but is not me, then who will talk about the issues facing families that many are afraid to deal with? so i will share mine to the death. You may want to stone me just like right now, but who is without sin?
As I begun to ask myself why and why me, I began to "hear" god clearly, by the way I am a very talkative person, so getting me quiet has taken God 7 years but imagine it began in 2008. I started reading my bible more and meditating on the word of God. I could spend hours reading- and wah! The discoveries eeehh!! Where had I been? Sometimes the revelations hit me hard! Actually knocked me out for days....I had to get a place(read church) that taught biblical truths, so in a frenzy i called a friend-Glorine to show me what to do and where to go. Glorine had been talking to me for eons, and I was not listening. i mean, my life had been comfortable, so what was she trying to tel me that I needed God? I mean I went to church every Sabbath and had given my life to Christ in 2004 after the death of my dear mother. She died at the age of 49, a very premature death. It is mum's death that got me thinking, heh!actually people die?
So Glorine told me about a church that teaches Bible truths without apologies. I finally located it one day when I was just tired of the turn of events in my life. Believe me when I say I prayed and told God that if the first sermon I heard did not relate to me then I am not going back! Lo and behold-what was the message? The power of agreement!! Eeh Lord what are you saying? The pastor there taught this in relation to marriage-ah Lord, Lord I was dumbfounded!!! What was this man talking about? Had he been told I will be there? After the sermon i went home asking God- "Father, what are you saying?" I have never turned back after that.
Next- Genesis chapter 1- In the begging God....
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