And so now after getting "married" and having two children, my mother passes away at the tender age of 49...premature death as my basement Pastor would put it. so wha would kill a woman in the prime of age? this got me thinking and even when i was married and went to my "husband's" home I knew there was a problem. You see this idea of broken homes is something that needed to be addressed and soon....or else...
So this guy comes from a home where his mother left or was left-just like me! I don't even know what to call my own father's house, was he polygamous or was he just a lover of many women? That is where the problem begins. I wasn't a saved christian back then but i just thought there is something here. And over the years i just casually prayed about it, and belived it was okay. By the way I am one of the very few women who can say I had a near perfect marriage-until the curse of what was eaten sprung up!!
Genesis 2:17 But
of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of
it: for in the day that thou eatest thereof thou shalt surely die.
So what had I eaten? First the marriage had been started on a wrong foundation, no god there, then fornication, that is sex before marriage even if you marry the same guy, God calls it fornication.
Flee fornication. Every sin that a man does is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body. 1 CORINTHIANS 6:18
But I must say I enjoyed a good union for 12 years, then things started falling apart! I now had 4 children whom I adore very much. When I finally begun walking with God I realized the folly and sins that we commit knowingly or unknowingly have consequences. Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit but did not die immediately as they thought so I too did not reap the consequences immediately until the devil had legal ground to start killing and destroying my home. Infact looking back i thought that this man loved me soooooo much as he had always shown and said that he would never really leave. my children still remember the good times with their father and mother-a perfect family.
And so when I confessed Jesus as my Lord and Saviour and was baptized by immersion in December 16th 2012, my life was now open to the devil's attack because there are things hoe goes to God and says why have you blessed this one when there is all t his sin in her life from 3 or 4 generations back? what can God do?He is a righteous God and cannot go back on his word. So like job, the devil is allowed to come in and try me to the uttermost-see- he has now legal rights.
Chapter 3-NAKED AND HIDDING
Thursday, 16 October 2014
Wednesday, 24 September 2014
Final Things: WHAT NEXT?
Final Things: WHAT NEXT?: I sat wondering what next after the sad and perplexing demise of my dear friend Reg......what next? Last Sabbath I heard a sermon that shook...
WHAT NEXT?
I sat wondering what next after the sad and perplexing demise of my dear friend Reg......what next? Last Sabbath I heard a sermon that shook me out of my stupor....THE PLACE! By Pastor Munene Mwangi....Where did this one come from now? The guy preached with so much gusto I was almost jumping from my chair!!! I was so fired up coz the whole week after the death and interment of my sister I was asking God - "So?" Silence was it until Saturday, Friday night I had asked Jesus "Please let me hear a sermon that will give me an answer". And then this sermon-THE PLACE
Where is the place you are at? What is God asking you to do? God had told Modes and Joshua too that THE PLACE they were standing on was holy ground. Was it the spot on which they were standing on that was holy or the final realization of what God wanted them to do? Wow, that got me thinking, and my creative juices as Reg would say started flowing....did it take her death to finally bring me to THE PLACE? I now know so. My place of ministry is now with the single girls, teenagers and young people, who I do not want to make the same mistakes I made. From dating to marriage to separation, all these have been learning points for me. It is said only a fool learns from there own mistakes, a wise man learns from the mistakes of others.
And so THE PLACE I have come to, is a place of knowing what God wants me to do. I know some may say I am washing dirty linen, yes but let me wash mine to save someone's dirty laundry. I think some of us have been called out to speak about our situations that others may see we are real people. I used to tell Reg that we are the ones not afraid to talk. SO we have to talk, by the way God blessed me with words heh! I can talk for hours!! I can relate to the likes of Joyce Meyer, Yuanita Bynum amongst others...women who speak about their life's journey and the victory Christ has given them. AMEN
So BROKEN RIBS and TEEN WALK are babies born out my experinces.
By the way my book THE BURIAL WILL NOT HOLD, still continues to be written and now with more fire, I have to complete it!! Though there seems to be a pause.
Where is the place you are at? What is God asking you to do? God had told Modes and Joshua too that THE PLACE they were standing on was holy ground. Was it the spot on which they were standing on that was holy or the final realization of what God wanted them to do? Wow, that got me thinking, and my creative juices as Reg would say started flowing....did it take her death to finally bring me to THE PLACE? I now know so. My place of ministry is now with the single girls, teenagers and young people, who I do not want to make the same mistakes I made. From dating to marriage to separation, all these have been learning points for me. It is said only a fool learns from there own mistakes, a wise man learns from the mistakes of others.
And so THE PLACE I have come to, is a place of knowing what God wants me to do. I know some may say I am washing dirty linen, yes but let me wash mine to save someone's dirty laundry. I think some of us have been called out to speak about our situations that others may see we are real people. I used to tell Reg that we are the ones not afraid to talk. SO we have to talk, by the way God blessed me with words heh! I can talk for hours!! I can relate to the likes of Joyce Meyer, Yuanita Bynum amongst others...women who speak about their life's journey and the victory Christ has given them. AMEN
So BROKEN RIBS and TEEN WALK are babies born out my experinces.
By the way my book THE BURIAL WILL NOT HOLD, still continues to be written and now with more fire, I have to complete it!! Though there seems to be a pause.
Wednesday, 17 September 2014
YOU HAVE A DATE, ROSE
My sister Reg meant that when you are going to church, you had a date with Jesus, and so you have to have a complete makeover. So every Sunday for her and every Sabbath for me, we made sure we had our best on, complete with flawless skin-thanks to liquid foundation and powder. For those who wonder why for me going to church is a ritual taken seriously.
And when back to the house later we would share what we learnt, from the sermon and everything else in between. And so today as I go to Holy Family Basilica for the funeral mass of this angel, I truly have a date!
It will be solemn mass for my sister but it will be a time also to release every bitterness and anger that I have right now. Reg may be gone, but her legacy will leave on, in her son Richard, whom she earnestly prayed for that he will be a young man with respect an honor for God and for mankind. My prayer is that he will have a stable place to grow and be established in the fear and knowledge of his mother's Lord and Savior Jesus Christ of Nazareth.
PEACE ROSE, PEACE
And when back to the house later we would share what we learnt, from the sermon and everything else in between. And so today as I go to Holy Family Basilica for the funeral mass of this angel, I truly have a date!
It will be solemn mass for my sister but it will be a time also to release every bitterness and anger that I have right now. Reg may be gone, but her legacy will leave on, in her son Richard, whom she earnestly prayed for that he will be a young man with respect an honor for God and for mankind. My prayer is that he will have a stable place to grow and be established in the fear and knowledge of his mother's Lord and Savior Jesus Christ of Nazareth.
PEACE ROSE, PEACE
Tuesday, 16 September 2014
AND FINALLY OUR DREAM CAR
So we had this dream of cars.....Reg dreamt driving a Prado, I said "You will be arrested by cops thinking you're a teenager who stole her dad's car, you are too tiny for a Prado and it is too masculine, you need a feminine car...like a Honda CRV" That was in 2010. My dream car has been a CRV Honda for as long as I remember!! So after much talking over coffee and cake, I convinced her to my side, and a deal was made-When she buys a car it will be a blue CRV. At that moment I just told her from the blues that I will then be rich enough to purchase her current car-a Corolla, then later buy my own Blood red Honda to signify the blood of Jesus. We laughed it off. So she once went to a car bazaar to check them out, and told me "By the way the CRV just winked at me like it belongs to me" Laughter again. Cos every time we met we asked when God is going to open her door to buy her car as I buy her old one. That now will not happen, now God has just to bless me with a new Honda CRV.We even knew the prices of every new one that appeared, until we told God "eh how long are we to wait?"
Ecclesiastes 3:11
Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God's work from beginning to end.
JUST A MINUTE-REG
Okay so I was to continue the last profound message from Reg...The year is 2010 you texted (your calls were rare and only when you wanted to pray with me or sing a song) ....Hey Rose please take your CV (which by the way she had done for me so professionally) to Maureen Nafula, she needs workers NOW!! Before I could think, Maureen called "Hi Rose this Maureen Nafula, Regina told me you were looking for a job (was I?), well I have a vacancy in this new project I need people to do some research" Huh??? Did I hear right? Yes I did. My heart was fluttering and my heart beating so fast and loud, I think Maureen could hear it!
Well I did take my CV to NHIF building and met Maureen, who by the way we had worked with at KEMSA. She had this project with Rockefeller foundation. So IHPMR (Institute of Health Policy Marketing and Research), here I come. I begun work the next day - really? My angel had done this one too. And did I mention that for the 2 years I stayed with Reg, she paid me Heheheheheeee, may be let me not mention how much, "This will help you in moving around" is all she said. And I thought it was for one month, she did the same the next month ...and the next...and for two years.
Within 4 months of IHPMR....."Reg, you know I now think I will move to my own house" She never said much, only she knew that I had nothing to move with, and so "You can take my old TV, my old curtains (I had stitched her new ones) I know how to do that, - and here is so much to boost you" I can still hear this angelic voice. And so come January 2011 I moved to my own 2 bedroom apartment, And she escorted me to the house and we had a mini celebration. And now we were a few miles apart but we were still friends.
2 years down the line....IHPMR wound down the project.....and once again Angel to the rescue, this time I decided I have something in my hands like the rod of Moses, our prayer was that God will bless the work of my hands, but can you imagine as I was starting up, things were tough and so Reg set up for me a standing order of so much, every month religiously this amount was in my account by the 2nd of every month.
Last month, Reg sent me a text saying "my sister KRA have just discovered some taxes I have not remitted so this month will be the last for this standing order, but May God-our God will open up a greater door for you". My text back -"Reg, you have already done so much for me, may God remember your sacrifice of giving". Did I understand what that meant? No. I am left wondering, as she now ready to fly back to heaven? I know some people will say the dead are asleep-I know that too, she is asleep-but just maybe or perhaps she was just and angel sent to me for such a time as that!
Reg, for sure I am thoroughly blown off, even I cannot do what you did, but then maybe God wanted me to learn from you, that yes, I too, can be an angel to another BROKEN RIB.
Well I did take my CV to NHIF building and met Maureen, who by the way we had worked with at KEMSA. She had this project with Rockefeller foundation. So IHPMR (Institute of Health Policy Marketing and Research), here I come. I begun work the next day - really? My angel had done this one too. And did I mention that for the 2 years I stayed with Reg, she paid me Heheheheheeee, may be let me not mention how much, "This will help you in moving around" is all she said. And I thought it was for one month, she did the same the next month ...and the next...and for two years.
Within 4 months of IHPMR....."Reg, you know I now think I will move to my own house" She never said much, only she knew that I had nothing to move with, and so "You can take my old TV, my old curtains (I had stitched her new ones) I know how to do that, - and here is so much to boost you" I can still hear this angelic voice. And so come January 2011 I moved to my own 2 bedroom apartment, And she escorted me to the house and we had a mini celebration. And now we were a few miles apart but we were still friends.
2 years down the line....IHPMR wound down the project.....and once again Angel to the rescue, this time I decided I have something in my hands like the rod of Moses, our prayer was that God will bless the work of my hands, but can you imagine as I was starting up, things were tough and so Reg set up for me a standing order of so much, every month religiously this amount was in my account by the 2nd of every month.
Last month, Reg sent me a text saying "my sister KRA have just discovered some taxes I have not remitted so this month will be the last for this standing order, but May God-our God will open up a greater door for you". My text back -"Reg, you have already done so much for me, may God remember your sacrifice of giving". Did I understand what that meant? No. I am left wondering, as she now ready to fly back to heaven? I know some people will say the dead are asleep-I know that too, she is asleep-but just maybe or perhaps she was just and angel sent to me for such a time as that!
Reg, for sure I am thoroughly blown off, even I cannot do what you did, but then maybe God wanted me to learn from you, that yes, I too, can be an angel to another BROKEN RIB.
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