Genesis Chapter 3-NAKED AND HIDDING

I started off not even knowing the wrong of my foundations..i just knew there was something wrong with the way my life had been from the start to my adult years but could not pin it on anything familiar-until I came to know Christ and started delving in this bible. What I discovered was heart breaking.

And as i get to chapter 3 of my genesis, I realise I have been naked and refusing to acknowledge the voice of God calling- "Rose where are you?"

  Gen 3 v 9,10
 But the Lord God called to the man, “Where are you?”
¹⁰ He answered, “I heard you in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid.”

I have been hiding and refusing to see that it is only in the free and saving power of the Lord Jesus will I be free from all curses pronounced and given a fresh start. And like Adam when asked where he was  and answering that he is hiding from God...I was refusing to acknowledge the sin in my life, the sin of the many generations before me, the sin of my father's and my mother's house!.

Here I was, God wanting me to deal with my sins and those of my previous generations. But me? I was hiding! For two years from 2006 yo 2008. In frantic frustration I did call one sister in church to help me and she introduced me to the church in the basement. I wrestled with this until one day I just went there and the first sermon i heard jolted me to reality....THE POWER OF AGREEMENT., the pastor was talking about agreement in marriage and with other people and what it means. I was hooked and from then on I went to listen to the teachings here. a few weeks later there was a 50 day seminar on the book of Genesis, we had to learn the genesis of our life and the reason for things that happened to us.

BANG! My transformation begun. There was three sermons a day and lot's of prayer. I was begining to see the light.

So I begun the looooong journey to discovering the sins of my ancestors, and what I came up with was not interesting-from idolatry to polygamy (one of the worst sins) to adultery and fornication and all accompanying baggage. But Lord, how do I deal with all these? I am just one person! And the answer, "It is you that will have to liberate your family and your children" I begun the search in earnest and falling many times and giving up many times.

Lord, I am not hiding anymore despite my nakedness...please clothe me.

If make up is your sweet heart - let it go!! - Joyce

MBaby girls sermons...If make up is your sweet heart-let it go!!

Genesis chapter 2-WHAT DID I EAT?

And so now after getting "married" and having two children, my mother passes away at the tender age of 49...premature death as my basement Pastor would put it. so wha would kill a woman in the prime of age? this got me thinking and even when i was married and went to my "husband's" home I knew there was a problem. You see this idea of broken homes is something that needed to be addressed and soon....or else...

So this guy comes from a home where his mother left or was left-just like me! I don't even know what to call my own father's house, was he polygamous or was he just a lover of many women? That is where the problem begins. I wasn't a saved christian back then but i just thought there is something here. And over the years i just casually prayed about it, and belived it was okay. By the way I am one of the very few women who can say I had a near perfect marriage-until the curse of what was eaten sprung up!!

Genesis 2:17  But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of it: for in the day that thou eatest thereof thou shalt surely die.

So what had I eaten? First the marriage had been started on a wrong foundation, no god there, then fornication, that is sex before marriage even if you marry the same guy, God calls it fornication.

Flee fornication. Every sin that a man does is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body. 1 CORINTHIANS 6:18

 But I must say I enjoyed a good union for 12 years, then things started falling apart! I now had 4 children whom  I adore very much. When I finally begun walking with God I realized the folly and sins that we commit knowingly or unknowingly have consequences. Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit but did not die immediately as they thought so I too did not reap the consequences immediately until the devil had legal ground to start killing and destroying my home. Infact looking back i thought that this man loved me soooooo much as he had always shown and said that he would never really leave. my children still remember the good times with their father  and mother-a perfect family.

And so when I confessed Jesus as my Lord and Saviour and was baptized by immersion in December 16th 2012, my life was now open to the devil's attack because there are things hoe goes to God and says why have you blessed this one when there is all t his sin in her life from 3 or 4 generations back? what can God do?He is a righteous God and cannot go back on his word. So like job, the devil is allowed to come in and try me to the uttermost-see- he has now legal rights. 

Chapter 3-NAKED AND HIDDING

Final Things: WHAT NEXT?

Final Things: WHAT NEXT?: I sat wondering what next after the sad and perplexing demise of my dear friend Reg......what next? Last Sabbath I heard a sermon that shook...

WHAT NEXT?

I sat wondering what next after the sad and perplexing demise of my dear friend Reg......what next? Last Sabbath I heard a sermon that shook me out of my stupor....THE PLACE! By Pastor Munene Mwangi....Where did this one come from now? The guy preached with so much gusto I was almost jumping from my chair!!! I was so fired up coz the whole week after the death and interment of my sister I was asking God - "So?" Silence was it until Saturday, Friday night I had asked Jesus "Please let me hear a sermon that will give me an answer". And then this sermon-THE PLACE

Where is the place you are at? What is God asking you to do? God had told Modes and Joshua too that THE PLACE they were standing on was holy ground. Was it the spot on which they were standing on that was holy or the final realization of what God wanted them to do? Wow, that got me thinking, and my creative juices as Reg would say started flowing....did it take her death to finally bring  me to THE PLACE? I now know so. My place of ministry is now with the single girls, teenagers and young people, who I do not want to make the same mistakes I made. From dating to marriage to separation, all these have been learning points for me. It is said only a fool learns from there own mistakes, a wise man learns from the mistakes of others.

And so THE PLACE I have come to, is a place of knowing what God wants me to do. I know some may say I am washing dirty linen, yes but let me wash mine to save someone's dirty laundry. I think some of us have been called out to speak about our situations that others may see we are real people. I used to tell Reg that we are the ones not afraid to talk. SO we have to talk, by the way God blessed me with words heh! I can talk for hours!! I can relate to the likes of Joyce Meyer, Yuanita Bynum amongst others...women who speak about their life's journey and the victory Christ has given them. AMEN

So BROKEN RIBS and TEEN WALK are babies born out my experinces.

By the way my book THE BURIAL WILL NOT HOLD, still continues to be written and now with more fire, I have to complete it!! Though there seems to be a pause.

YOU HAVE A DATE, ROSE

My sister Reg meant that when you are going to church, you had a date with Jesus, and so you have to have a complete makeover. So every Sunday for her and every Sabbath for me, we made sure we had our best on, complete with flawless skin-thanks to liquid foundation and powder. For those who wonder why for me going to church is a ritual taken seriously.

And when back to the house later we would share what we learnt, from the sermon and everything else in between. And so today as I go to Holy Family Basilica for the funeral mass of this angel, I truly have a date!

It will be solemn mass for my sister but it will be a time also to release every bitterness and anger that I have right now. Reg may be gone, but her legacy will leave on, in her son Richard, whom she earnestly prayed for that he will be a young man with respect an honor for God and for mankind. My  prayer is that he will have a stable place to grow and be established in the fear and knowledge of his mother's Lord and Savior Jesus Christ of Nazareth.

PEACE ROSE, PEACE

AND FINALLY OUR DREAM CAR

So we had this dream of cars.....Reg dreamt driving a Prado, I said "You will be arrested by cops thinking you're a teenager who stole her dad's car, you are too tiny for a Prado and it is too masculine, you need a feminine car...like a Honda CRV" That was in 2010. My dream car has been a CRV Honda for as long as I remember!! So after much talking over coffee and cake, I convinced her to my side, and a deal was made-When she buys a car it will be a blue CRV. At that moment I just told her from the  blues that I will then be rich enough to purchase her current car-a Corolla, then later buy my own Blood red Honda to signify the blood of Jesus. We laughed it off. So she once went to a car bazaar to check them out, and told me "By the way the CRV just winked at me like it belongs to me" Laughter again. Cos every time we met we asked when God is going to open her door to buy her car as I buy her old one. That now will not happen, now God has just to bless me with a new Honda CRV.

We even knew the prices of every new one that appeared, until we told God "eh how long are we to wait?"

Ecclesiastes 3:11
Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God's work from beginning to end.